Yes, our life is getting gritty these days. As I start from the most superficial and work my way inward, my blog change has definitely been a difficult and stressful one! I have left the relative ease of WordPress.com and moved into the “big leagues” where I actually have to know something about how to manage computers, programs, keywords and you name it! I didn’t know much about any of that a few months ago.
I have read and read…and read some more about the many aspects involved in setting up a blog. I THOUGHT I was well informed. With major help from a son-in-law, the blog was set up. It was up to me to add in the details. What did I do first? Crashed my site with the first installation of a plug-in! I understand how to prevent that goof.
I’m gathering the courage to finish up the site. My daughter reassures me that this is common procedure for those entering into this stage of blogging. I need to give grace to myself.
MORE BODY MAINTENANCE
With yesterday’s MD appointments, came new maintenance requirements for my body (specifically my feet!). Exercises when I get up, special cream three times a day and after all this time, it turns out that I’m wearing the wrong size shoes! My feet are even bigger than I thought! Ugh! I hate having more maintenance.
In the last two months, I have been given quite a few more self maintenance jobs to do. This is the safe one to discuss here. One daughter forbid me to discuss one of the others here. Aging is so NOT fun sometimes. One of the more pleasant aspects of yesterday was a delightful doctor and pleasant office staff who all made eye contact AND smiled. That was not the case the day before at another doctor’s office.
THE BIG C: GOOD NEWS AND BAD NEWS
With Ron’s appointment came the details of the bad news we got from his pathology report last week. The bad news: his prostate had some cancer in it. Here is the good news part of the bad news: no elevated PSA; the Gleason score is 3+3; not all the tissue had cancer in it. Because of the score (low medium) and PSA, that indicates that the cancer is contained locally so for a variety of reasons that I won’t bore you with, the IGRT radiation choice seems to be the best way to go for a curative result with a minimum of unpleasant side effects.
That will take 8 weeks, 5 days a week, 10 minutes a day. From what we are told, it sounds like the worst part of this will be about 3 weeks before the radiation when all the prep work is done. He also will not have to have further testing of other parts of his body for any spread. It is too early for anything to show up on scans or x-rays so he has one less group of intrusions to endure. Radiation will take 8 weeks, 5 days a week, 10 minutes a day.
As Ron said after reading the booklet about what is going to be happening, “I could have done without this experience.” I’m sure that is true. But for now, God has sovereignly decided that this is the experience he, and to a large extent I as his wife, will be sharing this fall. He still needs to heal for a bit before starting all this so it will probably be late September before the process starts. (Well, the process has started! We see the radiation oncologist this coming week.)
That is just after we return from a visit to Seattle with children and grandchildren…and celebrate our forty-second anniversary! So we’ll bookend the radiation with time with some of our children as well as some time at Thanksgiving and Christmas with family. We have plenty to look forward to after the treatment! There, spoken like the person who is NOT having the radiation herself!
GOD’S GRACE…PLENTY FOR THE WEAK!
Meanwhile, through each of these and other gritty times, we need the prayers of our church community as well as our extended community of grace. Certainly the scripture that is very meaningful at a time like this is the following: But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me. II Corinthians 12:9
Certainly, none of us enjoys being weak, whether it is physically, emotionally or in whatever capacity. That goes double for Americans and my personality type in particular! (Ron appears to be more calm because he doesn’t naturally display ALL of his emotions publicly. He is certainly NOT “laid back”.)
What I have learned from this passage as well as Philippians 2 is that weakness is high on God’s scale of desirable character qualities…at least the kind that causes us to turn to HIM. I don’t understand it, but I have seen Him glorified by human weakness.
I don’t enjoy it much if I am the weak one, but those times of weakness have always been great for spiritual growth. I do know that out of this experience, God’s glory will be seen in Ron’s life and in our family in ways it has not been seen before. Part of the adventure of the Christian life is seeing how God works the grit into His glory by His grace. Sometimes the process is difficult. The story will be a great one! Stay tuned.