What a week! This has been a week when I have been smashed in the face with my self-righteousness. And then, to add topping to the “dessert” I was faced with a character failure in myself that really took me by surprise, especially when I tried to cover it up!
I guess I’m really starting at the end of the week rather than the beginning. I have been physically down all week fighting off I-don’t-know-what. I have been careless about getting enough sleep…downright dumb for this epileptic! Ron started driving the bus this week and the schedule is very demanding. We saw very little of each other due to mutually heavy schedules that do not coincide. So to say I was depleted by the end of the week is quite an understatement! It is not an excuse or justification for sin…ever. But being this depleted in this many areas does put me in a vulnerable position for sure!
So, how were my soul, body and spirit refreshed?
- First, I realized that trying to cover my sin would be harmful to my soul and relationship with God (remember Achan?) What is more important than that? Starting the process of uncovering my sin started late Friday night. (Repenting, writing out what happened for the appropriate person so if she was not available in person, a written account would be there for her.) The final outcome (consequences) will not be known until this next week, but it is out in the open now.
- We got out of town (to presbytery, but still out of town on Friday). We enjoyed visiting, laughing, talking for 3+ hours on the drive Friday and back home on Saturday. It helped fill the emotional bucket.
- At presbytery, the worship service included communion also known as a means of grace. It truly was! Having been reminded of the depth of my sin this week, it was so encouraging to be assured again of God’s forgiveness and lavish grace…that He has shown to me in Christ! I don’t have to live in guilt as “penance”. I truly am forgiven despite the unknown consequences.
- Also at presbytery, the reports from church planters, RUF leaders, and missionaries were encouraging. Not that everything is going smoothly, but that God is at work in encouraging and hard times! His grace is sufficient for each of them. That was followed by circles of prayer (that I had to miss so my daughter could participate. I chased after my little grandson:)
- This morning was to have been a time to meet with the women at presbytery. My cough woke me during the night and my weariness from the week totally caught up with me. I slept in…until 11:00 AM! That helped fill the physical bucket.
- A visit with children and a grandchild. We went to a nice long lunch at a delightful spot in Gainesville, TX. The food and visit were enjoyable today. Stevie cooperated and charmed the waitresses and us. Then we headed for home. That helped fill the emotional bucket as well.
Now we’re home and unpacked. I’m feeling rejuvenated and ready for another week. It will be busy too! Hopefully my medication will kick in and the cough will soon be gone. Ahh! Rest…
“Come to me, all who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you, and learn of me, for I am gentle and lowly in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light.” (Matthew 11:28-30)